A Compromised Rant

Do you ever have a day when you're going about your business, life as usual and then suddenly, for whatever reason (or no reason at all) you're just frustrated, cranky, antisocial and the only thing you want to do is go home, put on your pajamas and not talk to another person for fear that you might unleash the fury on them? Today is that day for me. The trigger for this was when I had to go up to the front counter when "that guy" came in. "That guy" who is ALWAYS rude, ALWAYS mad about something, thinks he is entitled to get WHATEVER he wants and is seemingly incapable of solving any problems or issues that arise in any other way than getting hopping mad and yelling at people. The one good thing I can say about this guy is that his group is moving out of our building and it can't come soon enough. His encounter with our office today only involved me for about 30 seconds, but his whole presence here put me in a bad mood and my stomach is in knots just thinking about it.

I can admit that I'm probably unreasonably upset about this stupid guy and I should be able to just let it go, but I don't really see that happening. I went about reading other people's blogs about happy things to try and calm myself, went to ESPN to read up on the amazing trade the Tigers just made (yay!), checked out articles by my favorite writers, caught up on my TV and entertainment news, checked out stuff on facebook, all to no avail. I've also noticed that once I'm mad about one thing, pretty soon every other thing that makes me mad comes into focus and I become an anger ball (thank you, Playing By Heart). So I decided that I would unleash the fury into the void that is the world wide web. However, I feel bad about doing it. I'm pretty sure there's very little that I should actually complain about/get mad about/etc. Now, since I know myself well enough to know that I'm never going to become a completely easy-going, troubles roll off my back kind of girl, I thought I could at least temper the ranting with a few positive things.

Thing that makes me smile #1: I get to partake in the wonder of delivered groceries today. I know I've mentioned this before, but I'm not sure I was able to impress upon you how great of a thing I think home delivery is for groceries. You don't have to carve out a section of your day to wander through the supermarket with its headache-inducing lighting, loud people, and carts everywhere. You do have to carve out a time to be at home for the delivery folks to bring your stuff, but you can just pick a time when you would be home anyway and it's not inconvenient. You also don't have to lug them around yourself, the nice delivery people bring them right up to your door, put them down in your kitchen and all you have to do is put everything away! It's great! And it's really not that expensive, particularly when you start factoring in the convenience. And, if you're me, the fact that you don't have a car so you can only buy as many groceries as you can haul around with you walking, on the train and on the bus. The delivery guys can carry way more than I can.

Crazy rant #2: Last year my office put me in charge of decorating for the holidays. I put together what I thought was a pretty nice presentation, I spent a lot of time on it, it was carefully planned and in the two weeks following, people were up in arms about how terrible we were and anti-Christian, blah blah blah blah blah. So we took part of it down and while people still continued to complain, it got better. This year we decided to go minimalist. A couple of nice wreaths, some garlands. Festive, but not offensive (I hope). I will tell you that time got a little bit away from me this week and the decorations have not made it up quite yet. They're going up tomorrow. All week we've had people calling and walking in to ask where the holiday decorations are, when are we putting them up, what are we putting up, we better put something up because the building looks very dreary. I would like to know why these people have so much time on their hands to be that concerned about it. I know there will be complaints as soon as the decorations go up that there aren't enough/someone is offended/we're ruining Christmas. I shouldn't take it personally, but it gets tough not to after awhile. And in the meantime it totally destroys my Christmas spirit.

Thing that makes me smile #2: I'm getting my hair done this weekend! I love love love to get my hair done. I look forward to the day when I can legitimately become one of those little old ladies who goes to the hairdresser every week to get her hair done and knows everything aobut her stylist and even talks about her/him as though they were the closest of friends. It's so relaxing and refreshing. And this weekend I'm getting both a cut and a dye, which is even better. I'll just sit and relax and it'll be great. And my hair will be freshly darkened for Amy's wedding, which I'm pretty excited about. I'm telling you, dying your hair dark becomes an obsession. And I'm never convinced that it's dark enough.

Ok, well this little experiment isn't working as well as I thought. It was for a minute, but then something else came up that set me off all over again. So I think I'll just leave it at that and hope that the end of the week will turn out better than the beginning.